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the english language isnt good enough. there are some things i wish i could say, but just cant find the right words to completely convey the right message. it sucks. am i alone in this? have any of you found atleast once that you couldnt tell somebody something really important due to the fact that there simply werent words with which to express yourself. goodness gracious.
when i come to these road blocks i end up just getting super frustrated and angry at anything and everything. and normally sleep helps. but lately, sleep just isnt working. my back hurts. i feel sick to my stomach every once in a while. and i just kinda feel stuck. running around in circles, trying to find the solution to a problem that knowing me, is probably self-imposed. dangit.
in a matter of weeks i will have completed my second decade as a human being. and wat have i got to say for it... well. not as much as i would like. and i dont even know where to start im so frustrated. its a problem within a problem. im such a girl.
rant rant rant. goodnight.

ive become a lot less devoted to this blog... sad... and i also havent really been doing outfit posts anymore. truth is i dont really get dressed up as often... hah i stay at home in my sweats. dont get angry cuz you know you do too. but i figured i would sorta give you an update on my life at the current time. where to start.\

this one isnt really that big of a deal, but my phone busted on sunday, so a couple days ago and i havent had one, which kinda sucks.. this phone has been giving me problems, almost from the get go. idk what it was but yea, phones just dont like me all too much.

another update, i got a new job!! its only seasonal so that blows, but i mean its whatever, the staff is really nice, and ive been invited to the staff christmas party which is cool. never been to one of those! weird i know , but i guess i just never got word of any of them. oh well!! so yea, new job. so far, not a lot of shifts... hah i really hope someone else calls me back and hires me cuz these guys arent gonna hold me over. 10.00 an hour?? poop. but its money right? yep.

hmm what else... oh i went to see wreck it ralph a while back!! that was SO GOOD!!! hah way too cute. seriously, if you havent seen it, go see it.

i moved. cant remember if i wrote this in the blog, but here it is :) i moved into town, and am now in a new ward. its weird... but ill get used to it eventually. the great hing is now that im in town, its a lot easier to hang out with one of my most favorite people. thats a great big bonus.

hmm. what else. i lost a whole lot of my shoes? thats kinda a big thing to me. i had three boxes of shoes to be moved to the new house, and of those three boxes, the biggest one with all the heels in it somehow got lost in the move. and that sucks... to make matters worse, in that box was a pair of heels that i just barely bought on my trip down to utah, and i hadnt worn them yet! dangit... i really hope they're hidden somewhere in our storage unit.

i suppose thats all for updates. hah, life is good, and the future is bright :) im very excited to see how things unfold.

later all!!
ohj wait!!! christmas is almost here!!!!!! LESS THAN A MONTH..... wow. where did the time go? am i the only one who thinks it came way too fast?

think good thoughts

here's how i work... sometimes in my life i come to a point where i get so excited about meeting someone that i sorta cling to them... ive been told that it can be extremely annoying. so, recently  ive tried to hold back my habit. its been working. ive been doin a great job of not texting my new friends. but you see ive stopped texting everybody else too. and now ive started this new awful habit of thinking of these new friends for what seems like evrry second of the day that im not texting them. hah. some habit i broke. oops. created an entirely new one. anybody have any idea on how to get my thoughts off of this new friend? thanks ahead of time! :)

some peoples' children...

seriously guys.... WHAT IS UP!!!!! been a while. in know. but the only thing that has happened since i last blogged that is of any significance iiiiiis i moved. big whoop. and that's all i have to say about that. so. back to the topic of this post. some peoples' children......

so, it's come to my attention far too many times in the past couple of weeks, that the men in Southern Alberta are born annoyingly blind...... not literally. but still, in the worst way. blind to what's right in front of their eyes. i know far too many girls who are being mislead, mistreated and used (without the guy ever even noticing for the most part that it's pretty much entirely his fault)

yea yea i know what you're thinking, "she fell for him in the first place" right?? wrong. well... not wrong... but you're probably looking at it from the wrong angle. yes the girl fell for the guy. but she fell for him because he seemed sweet and he was nice to her. than all of a sudden out of NOWHERE, it's like a switch was flicked and he completely changed personalities. something or someone else came up, and said girl who is now devastated, has been left in the dust.... ouch.

was she not good enough?? there was no good reason for you to leave her!! you were both perfectly happy until those pesky words snuck their way into your brain... "what if".....

what if there is somebody out there who is better for me... what if she's a controlling psycho freak (according to her exes *side note, it takes the right person to bring out the best in someone, so they were probably not lying in telling you that, but it would be wrong of you to judge her for it*)... what if she falls in love with somebody else and leaves me stranded (um... hello? like you're doing right now..?).... ok first of all... QUIT IT!!!!!!! second of all... lemme quote good ol' Bob Marley again.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect-you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together. But if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break-her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

too wise my man.... too wise. what does it matter that she eats more than you do, or the color of her hair makes you wanna puke... if she makes you happy, and you make her happy, that's the end of it. DON'T take for granted what is right in front of you. please please PLEASE.

now I'm not saying girls don't do this too because we definitely do, so girls this post is just as important for you, i have just seen it becoming a pattern in the habits of too many guys.

we are humans... we make mistakes. we learn from them.... i had a deep conversation with my mom the other night that really put things into perspective for me. she went through quite the process of finding my dad... she was engaged to be married to man A. but upon deeper consideration, realized their relationship wasn't built on the morals that she wanted to raise a family with. she met man B, got engaged and set a date (getting closer). but then she met my dad.....  she broke it off her previous engagement and fell madly in love with my father... they got married in September and it has been 20 years.. perfect years? no. not even close. beautiful years? yes. full of love. unconditional love for each other and their Heavenly Father.

now I'm not saying third time's the charm or anything.. that's just the way it worked for my mom. yea they fight. all the time. but they make each other happy. they face their problems together. they grow together. they learn together. they had children, taught, and were taught by them... together.

so. as hard as life is... and as many bumps and bruises as you may accumulate along the way, life is meant to be a challenge. how else would we grow?? don't let life pass you by wondering why couldn't this have been easier, or why didn't i know this way back then....

the past is in the past. yes we should reflect on it from time to time and learn from it. but we are not meant to constantly dwell on it. it is soooooo unhealthy to constantly go back in our lives and nit pick at the things we could have done better then... as Rafiki said to Simba in The Lion King: its in the past!! stop bringing yourself down with it!! now this is no easy feat i know. I'm extremely guilty. but hey, I'm not perfect either!!

so if there is one point you should gather from this entire post it is this...

live here and now.

love those who love you, learn lessons from those who don't, and never, EVER take for granted the blessings you have been given. cuz you have more than you can count. you just have to pay attention and open your eyes to see them.

well, that's all for now folks :) have a fantastic week!!