day 5. a vent.

have you ever gone from cloud nine to the bottom of a lake in the middle of nowhere?? well thats kinda how this week has been :/. thursday night i was the happiest girl in the world. evrrything was perfect. but see, because im so accustomed to my life being imperfect, my mind has been filled with nothing but negative thoughts. and im extremely mad at myself for it... i have mentioned before that im not the most patient individual when it comes to whats around the corner... and i want whats around the corner.. im just scared because im so used to things back firing... this week has been really hard. and i cant wait for it to be over. just a vent. sorry.