The Optimistic Cha Cha

all my life i have been doing the optimistic cha cha.
for those of you who are at this moment contorting your faces all puzzled-like, let me clarify.

i haven't always had this perspective that's for sure

but now that i do, how can i possibly be sad about doing the cha cha?

i mean really.

life isn't about being perfect all at once in everything.

the only perfection one can truly achieve is this:

                perfection in learning how to be imperfect.

once you can truly say that you are happy and grateful with your flaws and imperfections, at that moment you have truly embraced the definition of perfection

let that soak in for a second

funny huh?

lets expand

i accomplish tasks given to me best when i evaluate myself first, for example:
               if i'm asked to run a marathon, there is no way i could pick myself up and just go at it right then no matter how
               determined i am.
               i have to evaluate the situation
                    how good am i at running?
                    how long will it take for me to get good at running?
               then i take the steps to reach "perfection"
               that is if i want to.
               personally, i'm not up for running a marathon. i like to go on random jogs just for fun
               and to me, that's perfection enough.

perfection isn't the same for everybody. set goals for yourself and achieve them at your own pace
nobody can tell you you're not good enough
you are always good enough so long as you let yourself see it.

so what do ya say?

wanna do the optimistic cha cha with me?

toodles

thanks to a rotten tooth

have you ever had a tooth ache before?
if you answered no, consider yourself lucky.
if you answered yes, i have shared your pain.
this last thursday i was watching an episode of house in our home theater. i have been experiencing minor tooth aches for weeks now. i get really bad cavities... :(
but this time it was way over the top. i was keeled over in pain. crying hysterically. it didnt matter what i did it just kept getting worse. i tried an ice pack, i tried chamomile tea, i tried biting my tongue to focus myself on something else. i even tried talking about it to someone whom i knew wouldnt really be able to help considering he was miles away and extremely busy.
so i got down on my knees, and i prayed.
call me crazy but i have never poured out my heart to my savior like that before.
my mom has always told me that everythign is spiritual first, so i knew immediately that this prayer wasnt just going to be about my raging toothache. it was about everything i was goung through, both physical, and spiritual, emotional and familial.
my life is hard. im sure there are a but load of people who have it harder, but for what i can handle, my life is super tough. im not going to go into details because this just isnt the place, but the moment i got on my knees and started praying to my father in heaven, it just all came out.
i was already hysterical from the pain, and more tears started flowing as the words started spilling out.
i went from thankful, to angry, to silent and everything in between.
but wanna know the funny thing? it completely turned me around.
my tooth was still roaring the rest of the night, but my heavenly father just had to get me in a time of vulnerability, and a time of need, for me to really seek him and trust him.
and it was coincidentally right before conference weekend.
i was given the opportunity that day to go to conference, and it almost didnt work out, but i went. and let me tell you. what an amazing weekend.

i got to have a heart to heart with my very best girlfriend, and man did i ever need that. i love the friends i have in alberta, i really do. but nothing comes close to Syd.
Ever since we met in grade ten she has been right by my side when i needed a shoulder to cry on, to vent to. She will always be my very best friend.
and i only have two people that i can really say that about. that i can say that i could really trust to be there in a pinch. neither of them live terribly close, but any time i see them its like nothing ever changed. we pick life up right where we dropped it. and i love it.
There is no greater feeling than that of knowing that you are loved. especially when you can reciprocate that love.

so in short. my perspective has been completely altered, all because of a toothache.
so thank you crappy teeth
thank you very much.

walk the line.

have you ever tried to walk, bike, or drive in a straight line? not too hard right?
have you ever tried it with your head turned looking backwards?
not so easy anymore is it.

there is a reason laws are put in place to make sure you keep your eyes on the road ahead at all times. despite your best efforts, its just not possible. you need your eyes to constantly re evaluate and adjust top your surroundings.

can you guess where i'm going with this one??

some of you may already know that i spent a week this summer as a youth counselor at efy.
it was an amazing week!! i met some amazing people and learnt some amazing lessons.

one of those lessons was learning to let go.
i for one have an extremely hard time letting go of the past. i am constantly worrying about the past and how it affects my future... when in reality, i'm creating the problem...

back to the beginning, lets tie it all together.
how am i supposed to move forward if i'm constantly looking over my shoulder at the road behind me?
how am i supposed to stay focused on my future when im so stuck in the past?
im not.

whatever happened in my past, your past, or anyone else's past, is in the past and can't be changed or re written. so why is it that we all dwell on it?? really i dont understand! even though i am more than a victim of it i just dont get it.

so from now on i will do my best to move forward with my eyes ahead and not over my shoulder.

i was planning on this post being a lot longer but i suppose its just not the time or place because the words just arent coming haha
later guys!!!

im sorry

dear blog followers and internet surfers. i realize that i havent posted in a long time. i have had so much on my plate lately and the blog had just fallen behind in the priority list.
the weight on my shoulders has recently been lifted however, so expect a better blog experience from my end. haha hopefully i will be able to get a good long post out tomorrow, i have some good ideas.

in the mean time enjoy this. and all their other songs.
they will always be my favorite!
i hope you love them too :)

later lovelies

Cups Mashup

i posted another video on youtube.
i performed this in my ward talent show hoping to make it into the stake talent show, but because the limit per ward was two entries and our ward is massive i didnt make it in.
i wanted to post it ages ago but i kept forgetting and getting lazy and then i was sick and a whole bunch of other excuses. but yea, here she is!

please excuse the hoodie falling off my shoulder, it was too hot and humid to wear it and i didnt wanna record it in just a tank top... haha thanks!!

later
xoxo

A Box of Crayons.

I love this quote.

its spectacular.

i really hope I'm a magenta, and not a purple.

:)

Mormon Messages

lately i have been going through youtube surfing binges and they have included lots of mormon messages. i want to share with you a few of my favorites. each for different reasons, but all equally as thought provoking.

this is why i am on this journey

this is why i am striving to be my best self.

i may not have the priesthood,

but I never know when the Lord might need me

to listen carefully to the spirit.

which can only be done if i am in tune with it's promptings.

this really humbles me.

the part where the mother finds her son

on his knees

after she was screaming at him in anger

makes me cry like a baby

every

single

time.

to be like unto a like unto a child.

humble, meek, submissive.

there are so many things we will have to deal with

just trust in the Lord

he knows whats best.

this one is on a bit of a lighter note

but just as painful to hear.

would it ever suck to be that guy eh??

well guess what..

you probably are

there are SO MANY things available for you in this life!

they've been given to us to help us grow and learn

some are intense gospel truths and experiences

some are wild adventures and service experiences.

but regardless of what those privileges may be

grab hold of them

and use them to their fullest

later days

xoxo