The Optimistic Cha Cha

all my life i have been doing the optimistic cha cha.
for those of you who are at this moment contorting your faces all puzzled-like, let me clarify.

i haven't always had this perspective that's for sure

but now that i do, how can i possibly be sad about doing the cha cha?

i mean really.

life isn't about being perfect all at once in everything.

the only perfection one can truly achieve is this:

                perfection in learning how to be imperfect.

once you can truly say that you are happy and grateful with your flaws and imperfections, at that moment you have truly embraced the definition of perfection

let that soak in for a second

funny huh?

lets expand

i accomplish tasks given to me best when i evaluate myself first, for example:
               if i'm asked to run a marathon, there is no way i could pick myself up and just go at it right then no matter how
               determined i am.
               i have to evaluate the situation
                    how good am i at running?
                    how long will it take for me to get good at running?
               then i take the steps to reach "perfection"
               that is if i want to.
               personally, i'm not up for running a marathon. i like to go on random jogs just for fun
               and to me, that's perfection enough.

perfection isn't the same for everybody. set goals for yourself and achieve them at your own pace
nobody can tell you you're not good enough
you are always good enough so long as you let yourself see it.

so what do ya say?

wanna do the optimistic cha cha with me?

toodles

im sorry

dear blog followers and internet surfers. i realize that i havent posted in a long time. i have had so much on my plate lately and the blog had just fallen behind in the priority list.
the weight on my shoulders has recently been lifted however, so expect a better blog experience from my end. haha hopefully i will be able to get a good long post out tomorrow, i have some good ideas.

in the mean time enjoy this. and all their other songs.
they will always be my favorite!
i hope you love them too :)

later lovelies

Cups Mashup

i posted another video on youtube.
i performed this in my ward talent show hoping to make it into the stake talent show, but because the limit per ward was two entries and our ward is massive i didnt make it in.
i wanted to post it ages ago but i kept forgetting and getting lazy and then i was sick and a whole bunch of other excuses. but yea, here she is!

please excuse the hoodie falling off my shoulder, it was too hot and humid to wear it and i didnt wanna record it in just a tank top... haha thanks!!

later
xoxo

issues with tissues

dear blogging world. in case you're superman or something (if you're superman, please gimme a call, i've been waiting for you far too long) and have never gotten a case of the sniffles, NEWS FLASH... IT SUCKS..... nah nah nah... it blows.... (heheeeeehhhhh...)
i hate runny noses.. i've been teeter-tottering on and off sick-ish for the past coupe of weeks. and i'm currently only experiencing the symptom of a runny nose.... the most annoying of them all. now if i lie down and let gravity do its thing i'm fine.... but i cant really be productive like that. so i sorta have to deal.
though i will say one thing, having a cold does mean that my voice gets lower, and looking on the bright side, i can hit some pretty sick low notes. (heheeeeeeeeh another pun)
i just felt like i should let you all know that, since i've been up anyways, and this blog is in need of some serious tender love and care... dang. sorry...

aaaaanyways, ttfn ma ladiez (and gents... if you're readin)

video overload

just enjoy. that is all.

love this song...

and here are a few more. just for fun. cuz im in the mood.

<3 another classic

and just a nice treat. in case you needed a laugh!!

and my fave song this week.

happy sunday!!! :)

let yer hair down!!!

Just a shmoo of songs off iTunes for those hot summer days <3


Shake - Jesse Mcartney
Crazy Girl - Eli Young Band
About You Now - Miranda Cosgrove
Good Girl - Carrie Underwood
Baby It's You - Jojo
You Can't Hurry Love - Dixie Chicks
What Did I Do - Nikki
Keep Your Head Up - Andy Grammer
The Fighter - Gym Class Heroes ft. Ryan Tedder
Last Friday Night - Katy Perry
Dance With Me Tonight - Olly Murrs
I'm Not One Of Them - Lauren Alaina
Runaway Baby - Bruno Mars
Good Time - Owl City ft Carly Rae Jepsen
123 - Craig Smart
I'll Be In The Sky - B.O.B
You're My Only Shorty - Demi Lovato
Together - Demi Lovato ft Jason Derulo
Want U Back - Cher Lloyd
Brokenhearted - Karmin
Gone Gone Gone - Robert Plant and Alison Krauss
Domino - Jessie J
Maybe - Plug In Stereo
Hey Sexy Lady - i SQUARE
The Golden age - Asteroids Galaxy
Heart Vacancy - The Wanted
Drive By - Train
Just A Step Away - Carly Rae Jepsen
Dancing Crazy - Miranda Cosgrove
Knee Deep - Zac Brown Band
I Like It Like That - Hot Chelle Rae ft. New Boys
All In My Head - Nick Lachey
I've Tried everything - Olly Murrs
I Miss You - Craig Smart

let it go.

don't let the way others treat you get you down.

recently a couple issues have been brought back up to the surface. and its hard. i tend to be the kind of person to cry it off, then bury it and keep pushing until I'm out of breath and need a little help. when i get out of breath those problems that i buried catch up to me and i become one emotional mess. and its not healthy.
there is a difference between letting it go and letting it be. i tend to be the type to let it be.
for some reason i have found that we as a human race tend to harbour up our negative emotions and let them grow in some unknown space inside of us. until one day that space isn't big enough to hold anymore, and you just explode.
don't let that happen. if someone has upset you; tell them. don't be like me and let them walk off not knowing what they actually did. it will do you more harm in the long run that you can imagine at that moment.
a while back i vented in a post about my brother in law, and this is the cause of my glum mood this evening. i was really hurt by him. and i didn't let him know it. i still don't think he knows it. but i don't blame him, i didn't let him see it. i didn't stand up for myself and tell him.
he did the things he did out of love for his family;his wife and children, but in doing so he forgot that i was more than just a guest in his house, and that perfection on my part wasn't realistic to ask for. he forgot that while he was hurting me, he was also hurting his wife, who happens to be my only sister.
both me and my sister are alike in that we are both silent in situations where our feelings are hurt. if I'm going to tell you i was hurt, its going to be very indirect and in some sort of code. which i have come to learn is extremely difficult to understand if you're not me.

so if you're anything like me, please take this piece of advice and don't just let it be... let it go. cry it out. pray about it. talk to your bishop about it. but never hold it in.

i love this song. <3


later days my friends

Sing

i remember posting about a cover i did a while back. but i sent you the link to my facebook profile.. so now im going to give you the youtube link, along with the link to the cover i did yesterday :) enjoy..? :)

yaaaa..... LATER

gone gone gone

yup. loooove this song

Dedicated to every girl out there who has been there before. which is a whole lot of us. I changed the lyrics to better suit my situation. And yea I'm probably going to look back and regret posting this, but phooey, its my life, and this is how i feel. you're gonna have to deal, comprende?

"She Will Be Loved" - Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
[He] always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've [let go] so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know [you] tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[Don't] know where you hide
[Or why you're so far]
[Or] all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Come- back and [let] me - catch [you] every time [you] fall-

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
[Though I've tried] so hard to say goodbye
[Though I've tried] so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

night all.

we sing. we dance. and all that jazz.

so remember i said i would try and find time to sing for you? well i did hah, my sister is out getting the girls from school, so i can sing as loud as i want, without fear of waking up the babies, or getting kids screaming in the background of my video.
so im not wearing any makeup, i apologize, but this is what you get. and please no negative comments, thank you :) i hope you enjoy :/

*****

ok jokes so i tried uploading it onto blogger and its not working.... so i am going to upload it onto facebook and see what i can do from there. then i will come back and edit this post :) its currently 3 pm. later!!

*****

alright its now six pm hah i went for a walk, and now im back, but the video was actually finished uploading an hour and a half ago. so i am just going to post a link to it. the video is public so hopefully you can see it!! :)

https://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=3779144844114&notif_t=video_processed
enjoy!

sometimes

sometimes no matter how smart you are, or how well you think you know someone, or whatever qualifications you may have. there will always be atleast one thing that will shock you. and yesterday i discovered something that shocked me. im not going to share it because its slightly personal i suppose. but it really changed things. in a bad way. but i guess if i wanted it to it could be a good thing. i dont know. all i know is it made me a little down. but then today i got heaps and heaps of free chili at a church fundraiser. (chili cook off and desert auction. pretty cute) food seems to be one of those things that creates a high point in my day.
two physical things i could not live without are food and the ability to create music. well the second one isnt really physical but ya.
well. i dont have much to say. other than i tried to film myself singing for you guys today and my camera died in the middle of it so it didnt save. i will try again tomorrow. stay posted if you wanna see that. night.

dance. sing. love.

does surfing youtube and finding amazing new songs constitute a hobby???? haha not to say i dont have a hobby though, if you know me you know i like to do pretty much anything. but more specifically i love to do crafts.

but aaaaanyways!!!! haha i found a cover of a song i didnt know even existed.. and i cant stop pushing repeat.... here she is!!

and since he's kind of amazing here's another....

aaaaannnd another :)

hahaha sorry if you dong appreciate music as much as i do... but today is just one of those music days. where all you do is listen to music. dance like nobody is watching. sing into a hairbrush. use your legs and any other random body part as a drum to keep the beat. and just generally be a fool :)

gotta love those days :)

happy friday the 13th!!!

Thank Goodness Its Friday

TGIF.

Yes. Its Friday night. And it has been a rather PG night at that. No Katy Perry business going on thank goodness. Today was a special day for more than one reason. One, it was my last day at work. And let me tell you that was the longest five and a half hours of my life. For two reasons. One because of the fact that it was the last five and a half hour stretch i would ever have to make as a cashier in that particular store, and two because of the excitement that was building in anticipation for what was to come after. At about three o clock i was picked up for what was to be my first date with Jesse.

It turned out to be the best date i have ever been on. And well honestly that's not saying much cuz my date history is pretty bleak.. but it sounds cooler when i put it that way. And its the honest truth. It was fun without being costly, and it was so easy to relax and be myself. This guy.. i wish so badly i didn't have to leave... the date started out and we played yet another round of foosball. He beat me. Again, but only by one point. And i swear he went easy on me... stinker. Then that was done and he started to play the piano... “remember that song i was trying to play on Monday he said?” i couldn’t remember the song cuz when he was trying to play it it wasn't really recognizable. But then he played it this time... it was the John Schmidt version of “Cant Help Falling in Love With You”. OK at this point do you want to know what is running through my head?? Holy coincidence batman??? well maybe. But its true. I cant help it. Maybe I'm not falling that far. But for only knowing you this long I'm pretty far down the road... As he sat there and played his song i couldn’t help but just dream. Daydream. I do it all the time. Its ridiculous. But anyways enough goosh..

(here's the song. he only played the beginning but still)

We continued with a game of pool, by which he won with only one of my solids left on the table. Not bad hah. Then we headed over to a Vietnamese restaurant in town and had dinner. I had fried rice and he had beef noodle soup. Insisted it reminded him of his mission. Things with this guy are different. I have never met anybody like him. Ever. He cares. So we get our bill and our fortune cookies, and guess what mine says.... “search for the dream that keeps coming back. It is your destiny” call me a corn dog. But i looked at the paper, up at Jesse, and then back at the paper and said “I will”. Talk about a coincidence of a fortune... baha. Probably just some dumb mumbo jumbo.

After that we went mini golfing. He would not stop poking me as i tried to shoot. Goodness. You’re endless flirting is one of those signals that leads me to believe that you’re interested in more than friendship. But i cant do a fetchin thing about it. Because we agreed that friendship was what we had. Idk... i hate mixed signals. Blhahheejcbejfyvhsefgksevfhsg.

Then we plop ourselves in some comfy chairs in a random hallway in the local college and watch Netflix while the janitors clean around us. Then we went to the roadshow our YSA stake was putting on. Got some very good laughs out of it. And then he drove me home and we said goodbye till Sunday.

Now most of you are probably wondering how in the world is that a fantastic date. Well honestly i have no idea. So simple. So fun. I don’t even know what to say. So i guess i should just say nothing. Because i am just spreading my feelings as thick as icing all over this page. Dangit Maddie.... goodnight all

on repeat.

just a few songs that have been playing through my head these past few days. figured i would share. since i have a love for music. :)

Good to You - Marianas Trench

i love Jessica Lee's voice in this

Want to - Sugarland

It would be wrong to not include a country song :)
(sorry the video is a little scanty at times)

This ain't Goodbye - Train

I love this song. Train is fantastic.

Here I Go - Megan and Liz

And of course the lovely Megan and Liz <3

Music is wonderful. i don't know what i would do without my music. I'm in a completely different world when I've got my headphones in and I'm just sitting still taking it in. or dancing like a fool hairbrush in hand while tidying my room for the hundredth time. or even walking down the road pretending I'm filming a music video :) Music <3 i might be a dork, but that's totally fine. i like who i am :) later gators

Country Music

hey there everybody :) so here i am. chillin in starbucks, jammin to some country, and i figured i would profess to you my love for it. anybody who knows me really well knows that i have an undying love for country music.
yea it can get to the point where there is too much twang, but i mean hey everything else just makes me weak in the knees! the deep rumbly voice of a good male country singer.... yea that's right, your ears just perked up. i cant even put it into words. i was surfin the tube yesterday and i found a new country artist. his name is blaine larsen.... ok guys he looks to be maybe sixteen tops. his voice sounds like that of someone in their thirties.. daaaannng gina sooo nice!!!! (side note: i just indulged in a caramel salted hot chocolate, YUM!!!)

in the video it makes reference to him being about eighteen. ok i can sorta see that, but dang that voice!! i almost like him more than scotty mccreery! and that's sorta a big deal lol. dang i love me some country.. I'm a sap for love songs too and country is known for its generally high level of emotion haha. i also love george canyon. he has an amazing voice, and some fantastic songs. for example "I want you to live ". i love that song. brings tears to my eyes almost every time... but then again a lot of things make me cry haha dang it... I'm a cry baby. but not in a bad wy..? haha idk, its the way i am and i love who i am so im ok with it :). aaannd just to name a few more i love aaron prichett, rascal flatts, miranda lambert, blake shelton, lady antebellum, gloriana and maaaanny many more :) COUNTRY <3 i could go on for a lot longer, but i wont bore you :) later!! :)

A New Artist

JJ Heller. lovely. here's a song i love.

enjoy. much love :)

Music. Is. Good.

OK so this is sort of a continuation of yesterday's rants, except this time i am going to try an be a bit more specific

I'll Be Ok

Mcfly... this song has some inspiring words, its cool. just tell yourself "i'll be ok". its that simple. it doesnt matter what happens to you. yea sometimes times get tough and its reeeeallly hard. but like i said yesterday, everything happens for a reason. you just have to look at the bigger picture. but at the same time you cant loose focus on the smaller things in life. the simple things. the here and now. You can't waste your precious time focusing on the negative, there is so much to be happy about!! Which brings me to the next song.

The Heart of Life

John Mayer... fantastic.. he's so right. the heart of life is good. yea sometimes life looks ugly, and well it probably is. but underneath it all, there is something beautiful. you just have to keep reminding yourself that the good things outweigh the bad. no matter how bad it gets. and its going to be hard. guaranteed. but it will be worth it. There is not a better goal in life that i have made than that of reminding myself to be happy. wake up every morning with a smile on my face, and go to bed just the same. on to song number three :)

Happy

Leona Lewis... what a babe. the chorus of this one always gets me... so what?? so what if this world pushes me off the edge?? i am stronger than that!! i have the potential to change the world. i just have to open my eyes to the possibilities. but that doesnt go without saying that it isnt easier when you have people to back you up. standing alone is hard. its really hard. but when you believe in something, when you stand out from a crowd when nobody else will, something changes in you. i know from experience.

im LDS for those of you who dont know, and i grew up going to school where i was an extreme minority. i was the only student of my faith attending a school with about 3000 kids. yeah. scary. everybody knew me for my beliefs. and at first i hated being alone... i hated being different from everybody else. but then it hit me. why is it so bad to be different? why is it so important that i fit in? i have an amazing life with family and friends that love me, what do i need the approval and acceptance of others for? and heres another song bringing us back up and happy again :)

A Girl's Life

Megan and Liz... man i love these girls. so inspiring, and they are gorgeous. and they have am zing standards. love. love. love. (and yes in case you were wondering they do mention twilight in the second verse :D) being a girl these days isnt easy either, but man is it fun!!! i love being a girl!! i love makeup, i love pink, i love painting my nails, i love playing with my hair, i love doing girly things. I LOVE BEING A GIRL! i am perfect through my imperfections :)

Freckles

Natasha Bedingfield... why waste a second not loving who you are??? your imperfections are what makes you you!! dont ever give up on yourself. EVER! you are worth everything in this world. YOU are wonderful. YES YOU! believe in yourself :) you are loved :)

anyways. later everybody!! remember to keep your chin up and always ALWAYS be happy.

Love them

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxSqeiT4f3c&feature=related
Rest of You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbFDsvfdd68&feature=related
Here I Go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C04p89G02gw&feature=relmfu
Run Away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCACy8zjKHs&feature=related
Happy Never After

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiiOv41fesw&feature=relmfu
Maybe Possibly
(personnaly i prefer the acoustic un etided version...)

Butterflies

"Love is like a butterfly, it goes where it pleases and it pleases wherever it goes.
Love is like a butterfly, hold it too tight, it'll crush. Hold it too loose, it'll fly."
"You can chase a butterfly all over the field and never catch it. But if you sit quietly in the grass it will come and sit on your shoulder."

I love joshua Radin. he is such an inspiring artist, amazingly artistic lyrics. This song has been on repeat for quite some time now, and i figured i would share it :) i think that the lyrics in this song ring true to my life. i want to be able to leave my cares behind me every time i take a step forward. stuff happens, we all make mistakes, but never, ever give up.
Now of course youve noticed the quotes about butterflies and love and such. ive been told so many times to wait and it would find me, and i couldnt help but think it was a whole load of hooey. Until recently. Life has been absolutely amazing. and im not even trying, its all just happening. Ive got butterflies to no end and a smile from cheek to cheek :) something that i would have never even suspected until friday evening. THE DANCE!!!
I got asked to dance by somebody i didnt know, for the first time in over three years. yea, i almost died!! teehee, i love life, yet another lemon to add to my jug 'o' lemonade :D