frustration

remember i said there was a possibility for a wonderful friday night and i was so excited? yeah well today my life just decided to suck. nobody could give me a ride. i tried texting and calling everybody i knew for two hours. and those who i contacted either had full vehicles, or they had already left. wanna know why this night was so important to me, and why i'm so bummed out about not going? well let me tell you. tonight is the ysa stake dance in toronto and i have been looking forward to it since the last week of april. so a month. i haven't been to a dance since about new years, and to be honest i gave up on dances a while ago because i always end up crushed by the end of it all. but this time it was going to be different... Bo was gonna be there. (ya remember that guy i told you about before??) i haven't seen him since that monday night. and its so frustrating trying ti get together with him because he works five out of the seven days of the week, and i work pretty much every other saturday. fridays don't always work out as tonight shows, and i am just plain old frustrated. it seems like every attempt i make to contact this guy is shot down hard. and not because he isn't interested. i don't know if he is, but circumstances just seem to point to me never getting a chance with him. and i only have three months left to get it. that stresses me out more than you can think. i'm a mess. call me a sap for crying over it. whatever, i don't care. i'm sad. crying is ok. i will stop soon enough. but for now, i want to just sit in my room and daydream. because lately that is just about the only thing that makes sense. later guys.