yes. this is me venting. because im sick of not telling anyone about it. and every time i blog about something it makes me feel better. so here it goes.
im sick and tired. sick anbd tired of you always picking out the negative in me. im sick and tired of you belittling me and treating me like a disappointment. you never see the things that i do for you and your family. she is the only one to ever say thankyou. every time she says thankyou. and if you ever do itd through her. we never got along. but it was to be expected. i was only ten. now im going on twenty and instead of just plain old i dont know you, now youre reducing me to tears. what the heck did i ever dso to make you resent me so much?? seriously man why do you think youre so much better??? and blaming the fact that she got sick one morning on me?? that's low. i understand that i add some stress because i am at work a lot and being out of the house leaves he on her own. but seriously?? ITS HOT! SHES PREGNANT! just because it has never happened in any other pregnancy doesnt mean that now that im here its my fault. and for your information, i do care about her well being. i care a heck of a lot. today when she came out of the bathroom crying?? that tore me to pieces.
i hate how you expect me to be perfect. one slip up and im the devils advocate. im sorry i was rushed for time one morning and asked for help from her to make me a sandwich. shes my sister and i needed help, why can i not ask? its a sandwich! im sorry that i forgot my wallet once and needed you to drive me to the go station. that was scatter brained of me and i felt awful asking. but it hasnt happened since and it wont happen again. i really hope for both our sakes we start to get along. especially for her sake. if it werent for you this stay would be perfect.. but instead because of you i want to leave right now. drive to the airport and go home.
that's all. bye.
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